“To suddenly see that you are or have been attached to your pain can be quite a shocking realization. The moment you realize this, you have broken the attachment. The pain-body is an energy field, almost like an entity, that has become temporarily lodged in your inner space. It is life energy that has become trapped, energy that is no longer flowing.” Eckhart Tolle – The Power of Now
One of the ways I cope with recurring physical (or occasional emotional) pain is to do what needs doing physically to alleviate it (supplements, stretching etc.) but I also take the time to welcome good things, good feelings, good events. It creates a new energy feel in my whole body, the energy unique to welcoming good, joyful, rewarding, fulfilling events. And that in and of itself moves any energy along and out. We have so much power.
Journeys of wholeness for the mind/body/soul don’t begin instantly for most of us. Most of us become more aware as a result of a life challenge. Then our journey begins, whether we recognize it as a journey or not. For my own story it began with low blood sugar struggles and resulting mood shifts and whole cataclysmic events altering my idea of just how much control I have over my life. And how much I don’t have. As it turns out, we all have far more control than we realize. And the more we learn, the better equipped we are to improve our lives on every level: mind/body/soul.
In my late teens and early 20’s, the struggle with low blood sugar or hypoglycemia evolved into an awareness of alternative eating styles and a keen interest in metabolism. I also had some experience with the effects of Vitamin B deficiency and resulting energy loss as well as devastating depression. Then came the bout with pneumonia in my early 20’s, changing my health forever. I was never the same. The gal who could easily get up at 5:30a.m. to go walking 3 miles, hop on a bike for long stretches of time and catapult herself up flights of stairs faded into a fever-haunted, energy-drained mess of body aches and often excruciating fatigue – to name but a few of the realities of what was unofficially (by my doctor at the time who had zero respect for the illness) diagnosed as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. It was the early 90’s and I was lost.
But the research eventually commenced and I learned much about taking my health into my own hands. I went through the usual tortures of those seeking spiritual as well as physical transformation, combing over my inner world to see what toxic beliefs I possessed that might result in low blood sugar, CFS and overall malaise. I grew by leaps and bounds as a result. But CFS never left.
I have concluded that while it is likely true that illness begins in the soul, there are many who are ill of soul yet sound of body. Life simply isn’t fair. As a result of this observation, I continue to seek out soulful and spiritual channels of transformation and wholeness while holding firmly to a faith in solid knowledge of the body. I lean more towards the belief that our illnesses are usually a result of environmental stressors and genetic predisposition, some of which can be healed through sound wellness practices. I find it somewhat arrogant when encountering the “experts” who have never been plagued with disease or chronic illness declaring the problem is in the spirit or soul. Again, there are so many who are sick, twisted, believing the most toxic things about themselves as they leap on their bikes or run their annual 5k. It just doesn’t fit the premise, does it? But I remain somewhat open to the possibility.
So, if you’re up for the journey, enjoy The Wellness Quest and be careful not to guru my posts with pontifications of grand spiritual cures or I’ll likely pass you a heavy dose of reality. I subscribe to a rational faith married to a bit of mystical whimsy which produces these beautiful ACTIONS towards wellness. Beyond that, I truly pray for healing for all who suffer any form of illness or disability.